My Brother, Jerry Paul

So that you will understand whats going on let me go back just a little bit. Jerry Paul was diagnosed with Basil Cell Carcinoma 3 yrs ago. That was 4 weeks before they did his surgery. While on the table removing the cancer they found that somewhere in that 4 weeks Squamous Cell Carcinoma also set in. (His new diagnosis is Basil Squamous Cell Carcinoma.By the way there is no hyphen in between the Basil and Squamous.) The Squamous Cell ate his gums, left side of his pallet, left cheek, left sinus & the upper left top lip. Not to mention most of the bone on the left side of his face. (If you were to take a medium point pen and draw a line under your left eye on the edge of your eye socket, that's how much bone he has left under his left eye. He does have his lower left jaw bone. That's it as far as the bone on left side of his face.)

Now on to whats going on now.

The last couple days the kids and I were on vacation, the flap on his face deteriorated some. Plus is separating on the inside, he also has pus pockets on the inside of his mouth, and you can see several spots on his gums, lips and cheek where the cancer is very active. Yesterday he could be sitting and doing nothing and his cheek would start bleeding. (the outside) & you could pretty much watch it spread. It spreading so fast really concerned us, so we decided to go to the emergency room.

The best part.

I get him to the ER and the doctors are very concerned bout him. They are so concerned they send him home. lol.

The doctors really are concerned. As matter of fact they have him admitted into the hospital almost as soon as we walk into the Er. They get him a CT Scan ordered and a bag of antibiotics. We get word from his nurse that they are going to admit him so couple hours later I decide to go ahead and head home. (my stomach was growling so loud that they people in the hallway could hear it growl. lol) But for some reason I decided to stop and make sure they were admitting him. Thankfully I did too. The doctor had decided not to admit him. I was a little upset. I mean I don't really want him in the hospital again. But this time its right where he should be. They need to be pumping him full of antibiotics to make sure he doesn't get an infection. But the ER doctor literally fought with himself for over 3 hrs. I'm not sure which side finally won, but that side decided Jerry Paul needed to go back to Medical City of Dallas (where the 1st surgery was done) We tried to explain to him that those doctors will not touch him again. (Out of our decision) But just like all the other doctors he didn't listen. The bottom line the doctors and the hospital didn't want to be responsible for him. Its not the 1st time we've come across this problem and it so wont be the last. Anyways, his home health doctor came by today and gave us the # to an ENT. They'll send the referral tomorrow and Ill call Friday to get an appt.

How is he today? Hes doing good. It only bled once today. And the spreading has slowed down. Ive noticed that when it bleeds that's when it spreads. Here are 2 pics that I took yesterday. One of em was taken at 4:03 pm the 2nd one was taken at 9:30 pm. You can tell the difference in the size of the what ever it is on his face. It did spread more after I took the pics. And its spread even more so today. It has spread over half of his flap.

Sadly, it wont be to long before it takes over his entire flap. We are afraid he will have to have it removed. We have been told that he cant handle another long surgery like that. Well see I guess.

Anyways, If anyone has any questions please ask. We don't mind the questions. The only bad question is the question you don't ask. Thank you to everyone that has added Jerry Paul to their prayers. Sadly that's about all he has left now. Please continue to pray for him.

Thank You

My Hero

My hero! After I got stung. I'm not sure why Jacob did it. But he grab my cell phone and was going to call 911 for me. After we started pulling off I noticed that he had my phone and had it open. He said he was going to call me an ambulance because he didn't know what had happened. I thought it was real sweet that he had the frame of mind to call for help. I feel really bad that it scared him though.

It really "STUNG"

Yesterday I was taking Jacob over to Niki and Kyles. They all went to the Ringling Bros Circus. (They had a blast) Anyways, Jacob and I were on 121 just talking (cant tell you bout what now) then all of a sudden I had this bolt of unexplainable pain and fire go through my body. I kinda gasp & pulled over as fast as I could. I pull up the back of my shirt to have Jacob see if he see anything on my back. (I must have hit the gas when I felt that pain). I'm trying to show Jacob where the pain is at. And I hear this tap on my car and hear a mans voice asking if everything is ok. I look up and theres a cop standing there. He asks me again if everything is ok? I told him no something bit the #$%^ out of me. He says mam, I said something bit the crap out of me. My back is on fire and there an indescribable pain. I'm getting out of the car and the cop gets this look of panic on his face. I pull the back of my shirt up and ask him if he can see anything on my back, and show him the general area. He said there is a red spot on my back. And we start to look in my seat to see if we can find what bit me. The cop spotted it. I was stung by a bee. Ive never seen one like it. It was very big all black except for a dark orange stripe by its stinger. All I know is I have never been stung like that before. I was raised in the mountains and have been stung by all kinds of things. But nothing like that bee. And Ive never been stung while driving. It wasn't cool @all. When it stung me the world went black for a second. I'm so glad we didn't have a wreck. Shoot the area where I got stung is very sore & tender.
The funny thing was the cop. I guess I hit the gas when I got stung. And the cop was hiding somewhere. I had this feeling he was going to give me a ticket for speeding. Even though it was for just a sec.. But when I told him I got bit by something you could see the look on his face, that said I haven't heard this one. lol. Then when he saw the welt on my back he got this look like wow shes not lying. lol. So he didn't give me a ticket THANK GOODNESS lol.
Its definitely not an experience I want to go through again.

OMG!! ITS ALMOST TIME!!!!

I cant wait til August. (on other hand I hope it takes forever to get here, even though its next week) The kids have invited me to go to Utah with em. I couldn't believe they wanted me to go with em. But they do. And shoot yea I accepted. lol. I love Utah. Its such a beautiful state. And were going camping in Yellowstone Park. I am so excited. Theres just not any words. The kids said that they both have had this feeling that I needed to go with em. At 1st the other didn't know each other had this feeling. Im sure they both tried to ignore this feeling. I mean after all who in their right mind wants their mom and even worse mother in law going on vacation with em. lol. I guess the feeling became more than they could ignore. So Niki told Kyle bout her feeling of me needing to go and Kyle told Niki of his. So she sent me a text asking me if I wanted to go. At 1st I thought they were playing a mean joke. lol. But she said they really wanted me to go. So I jumped on it before they changed their minds. lol. They even asked me if there were things I wanted to do or see. So they are taking me to see the giant Tonka trucks. lol. And they are taking me to see the SLC Temple up close. And other things I wanted to do. The only concern we all had was how I was going to be able to handle the trip with my back the way it is. And they have gone out of their way to make sure we do things Ill be able to do pretty comfortably. I know it has changed things for them, you know some of the plans they may have had or some of the things they wanted to do. The kids don't have a clue as to how much this means to me. Theres nothing in this world that would show them how grateful I am.
The only thing that concerns me, is the feeling they both had bout me needing to go. lol. Theres been things going on here at home and a bad feeling that Jerry Paul and I have had. Things have been pretty stressful here at home. And I'm just hoping that all our feelings doesn't mean something really bad. Time will tell.
Thank you kids for allowing me to enjoy your vacation with you. I love ya very much. Theres not a mom out there that's as lucky as I (ok Carla)

Addiction.....

Addiction, man it can sneak up on you.
Jacob plays this online game called Runescape. Well couple months back he was playing it and none of his friends were on line. (in game friends) Anyways, he begged me for hours to play the game with him. I'm normally not into those kinds of games. (RPG) But I finally broke down and started playing with him. Well the last laugh was on me. lol. I got hooked on this silly game. Its not one of these games that you'll finish in a month or 2. Its a game that you'll play for years. Plus the creators are always adding new lands and tasks and games and all kinds of stuff. I talked to one player on game and he has been playing for 3 yrs and knew someone that's been playing over 5 yrs. I hate to admit this but that will be me. lol. And it has allot to do with y I haven't been updating my Blog. lol. That and other stuff. I spend what free time I have playing the game.
Jacob and I have spent the summer playing it. Since finances are short and really cant afford to do anything like we have during pasts summers. Anyways, though all we have really done is play that game I have to say its been one of the best summers. We have had a blast. And yes we do other things. Its been a fun way to spend time with him.

Im sorry its been so long...

I don't know if anyone actually reads my Blog. If there is anyone that reads it then I'm sorry that I haven't updated in so long. Depending on which way you look at it will determine weather its been pretty hectic (and some days were) or as my life normally goes, pretty dull. lol. But here it is you can decide.
Ok the last time I wrote anything was right before my birthday. A very long time ago. lol. Back in April. Well the kids (NIki and Kyle) thru me a Murder Mystery party. And since I don't really know anyone, friends of Niki & Kyle came. It was so much fun. It was western themed. Sadly I don't member the all the names. But mine was Bella Starry. (most of the names were close to real life people). And I'm sorry I don't member your names but this one woman that we didn't like each other (n the game) she was awesome. At times I really believed she didn't like me. lol. We had clues that we had to find and things we had to say to other actors. In the end u have to figure out who the murderer was. My son, Jacob, was the one that was killed, and the lady that was the great actress was the one that did it. If you have never had one of these parties or attended one. You really should have one. And not just for bdays. Just for the fun of it. They are pretty inexpensive and they help you with everything. They give you almost everything. The script is 90% up to you. And they have probably every kinda party you could want. They even give u menu ideas. It was awesome. (My daughter posted a couple of pics on her site, check em out)
There has been developments with my injuries from the wreck, but probably shouldn't say anything. Just to let you know it hasn't been good. But thankfully I have one Dr on my side and is trying to help me every way he can. Its been almost a yr since the wreck and its been very hard. Having to deal with this alone. Its times like this I miss having someone special in my life. At times like this I really miss having that someone to hold me and tell me its going to be ok. Or hold me when I hurt so bad I cant stand it, or be angry with me cuz the Dr's wont do their jobs. Or just to have that special person there to be happy with and sad and all that stuff that special person does. lol. I wouldn't date anyone rite now with everything I have going on in my life. With me, and other stuff. I just don't have the time to devote to a new relationship. So I will continue to depend on myself as I have done my entire life.

1st time meeting the parents

Jacob has his 1st girlfriend. Her name is Rachael. She is just the cutest lil thing. She stands bout his height, she has long blond hair, and the longest skinniest legs you've ever seen. Well Jacob got Rachael something for Easter. (A lil basket, with some candy and a brown bear) I wish I would've taken a pic of it. The 1st gift to the 1st girlfriend. After the pinewood race and taking him and a friend of his to the park. I called her mom explaining to her Jacob got Rachael something for Easter and would it be ok if we bring it by. (Her mom just giggles very excitedly and says that is just the sweetest thing) and I get directions to her house. 1st house we go to wasn't theirs. lol. Their is now a visitor from CA that thinks Texans are really strange. lol. We get to Rachael's house. And Jacob is ready to run. Hes real nervous of course. I told him to take a deep breath and it will be ok. We get out of car and his mom meets us outside, then Rachael's dad and older sister. They just kinda circle poor Jacob. He has this look on his face like he doesn't know whether to scream, run or panic. lol x 100. He just stands there looking panicked. We all introduce ourselves and we go inside. I sit down and Jacob stands beside me. Rachael's parents and I are talking and poor Jacob still looks scared to death. After a couple of minutes of Rachael staring at him wondering what is in the bag hes holding and waiting patiently for him to give it to her. Jacob goes to sit the bag down and I motion for him to give the bag to Rachael. He hands the bag to her and her mom and sister just kinda gather round and they start going thru the bag. They loved what Jacob had given her. Esp the bear.
Here comes the best part and what just really kinda floored me.
We are leaving and Rachael's mom looks at Jacob and says thank you and that was just so sweet of you. Jacob looks up at her mom and very gentlemanly and very adult like says "It was my pleasure." I don't know who was more impressed and floored, me or her mom. lol. (sorry I cant remember their names) I had to pick my mouth up off the floor real quick. lol.
I was so proud of him. (although I'm always proud of him) Rachael's parents were very impressed with him as well. You could just tell. He used his manor and though they are only 11 yrs old. He showed (even though it was small) that he respected Rachael.
You know its not often that a mom or dad gets to be around when their son gets to meet the parents. So I was honored to be a part of it. And then for him to be respectful and impress the parents I was that much more honored. Its not often that parents get to see their kids at other people houses and to see if they did a good job at teaching them their manners and show respect to other people. I am so proud of him. And I have done my job at making him a great young man.

Best Street Rod

Yesterday, Jacob had his Pinewood Derby, finally. It was originally supposed to have happened months ago, but the day before the race, the Church decided it had better things to do. Seriously. Anyways. Unfortunately Jacob didn't win. As matter of fact of he came in 6th out of 8. He did get Best Street Rod though. He was really disappointed. I told him to blame daddy. lol. Daddy put the weight in the wrong place. lol. By the way I said that in front of his dad, and we all had a good laugh over it. They both knew I was joking. We both (his dad and I) explained to him winning isn't everything, that the important thing is he tried. And he had fun doing it. They had hot dogs afterward, which really wasn't very good. lol. The burnt ones they pawned off on the kids and the un-burnt ones were pretty much uncooked and they pawned those off on us poor parents. lol. But we had fun. And that is the important part.

Jacob

Ive written all kinds of things about my daughter. But I also have a son. A wonderful 11 yr old. Hes bright and funny and very affectionate for an 11 yr old boy. He is allot like his sister and yet he is so different from her.

The main reason I haven't really written about him is because, like Niki, I cant put down on paper (Or in this case on puter, lol) just how I feel about him.

It took allot to get him here. I tried to miscarry him when I was 3 months pregnant with him. I had to stay in bed for months. But he made it. Then his delivery was really hard. I was dilated to a 3 and he was coming. lol. The nurse said she had never seen anything like it before. She had been a nurse for over 20 yrs. lol. I had to manually dilated. And was being prepared for an emergency C-Section. Thankfully at the last second I dilated to a 10. Then when he was a week old he woke up with a fever of 104 and rising. Not only did he have a fever his little left nipple was swollen, red and had puss leaking from it. I got him to Dr office. He fever was 106. They gave him Tylenol and Motrin then took spinal fluid. They told me to get him to Dallas Medical City, that they were expecting us. They took spinal fluid from him 3-5 daily for 2 weeks. After a month they were finally ready to send him home. Though they never did find out what was wrong with him. But to send him home they had to put in a Pic Line. (Its an IV that goes straight into your heart. His was put into his neck) This lil thing was having to have a dangerous surgery at a month old. Thankfully the procedure went off with out a hitch. But when they got him back to his room, the nurse came into check the line. She noticed he had fluid coming out from under the bandage. I tried to tell her the doctor said that was normal and that it would stop. She went to pull the tape off of it and pulled the line all the way out. I was MAD. When I got the head nurse in the room, the nurse tried to blame Jacob for it. She could have killed him. Not to mention have you ever seen a month old strong enough to be able to pull tape off. Especially when its on his neck. Not to mention he was still sleeping from the anesthesia. Thankfully I was able to get her fired. And she lost her ability to work in a hospital. The doctors wanted to put the line back in and I told him No but HECK NO. (Not really what I said, But the G version) They never did find out what was wrong. And thank GOD, he hasn't suffered any lasting effects. Except for a scar on his neck where the line was and his left nipple in inverted. But other than that he came out perfect.

The point of both those stories was to prove just how strong he is. And so smart. He was given a placement test when he was in 1st grade. But they took him out of PE to do it. He got so mad that he was taken out of his favorite class that he looked up at his teacher and told her that he would fail the test. And he did just that. lol. He failed the test by 1 point. lol. He stays so bored in class now. We have him signed up to be tested yet again. He does so well on those state required tests. All his teachers knows he doesn't belong his the grade hes in. He averages 2-3 grades ahead.

Jacob is a very smart fun loving little boy. He loves life, though he little bit on the shy side, hes a very friendly little boy, he polite. His on only draw back (just like his sister) is that he wants to make everyone happy. He doesn't really like to play sports. And he has tried them out. Baseball, football.

He is now a Boy Scout. And he loves it. He goes out of his way to get his badges. He is working on getting the Scholar badge. I talked to the pack leader. And he was telling me that they don't give that badge out very often. The kids just don't try to get that one. But Jacob has almost completed the requirements for it. He has one step left. (for those that don't know, theres 3 parts to get that badge) He cant wait to get to work on the whittling badge. And is working on getting his animal husbandry badge. The pack leader said its so rare to see a child so excited about Boy Scouts. And work so hard to get the badges or so excited bout moving on to the next badge.

I am just very proud of him and I thank GOD everyday that hes in my life.

My last Easter

Well not really. Just the last Easter where the children that I gave birth to are hunting the eggs. lol. From here on out its strictly grandkids. (get that Niki? Its all up to you and Kyle until Jacob gets old enough to have grandbabies for me. lol)

Actually I thought my Easter days with my kids were over couple years back. Jacob didn't even want to dye eggs last year. But thankfully Jacob dyed eggs this year and hunted them. (I think he actually took pity on me, which he doesn't do often. lol) It would have been a perfect Easter had my other babies been here. I'm hoping next year though. Jacob and I did have a great Easter all the same. Sat I cooked him an Easter dinner that he wanted. Which was ham and baked potatoes. Then we watched Beverly Hills Chihuahua, which by the way if you haven't seen it yet you have to it is so cute. We played Guitar Hero. By the way its not a good idea to play against an 11 yr old, he will kick your but in it. lol. All in all with it being the last Easter that my children did the hunting. It was a good Easter. But very depressing as well.

For future reference parents the Camo dye kit really works. The center pic is of 2 eggs in the lil loopy doos at the top of the fence on the decoration part. Jacob literally walk up to those eggs 3 times. He got right up on them to where if he had sneezed he would have knocked them off the gate. lol. But nope, he didn't see em. The 3rd pic, yes, it is where he realized he walked up on these silly eggs 3x's and didn't see em. lol x 100. I told him for 10 min that he had to look at the fence area as well and to look straight ahead. lol. Its so funny how they will find the eggs that we really hid but the ones that are out in the open they will walk past them a 100 times and still not see em. lol.

OMG!!! Do we really depend on them??!!

I can't believe that we have to put our lives in the hands of doctors. I had to take my brother to the emergency room today. Just in case someone other than my daughter actually reads this, I will tell you a little bout my brother.
Several years ago he was diagnosed with Basil Squamous Cell Carcinoma (2 different types of skin cancer) He has already had the cancer removed from his face (which took lil over 3/4 of the left side of his face, from right under the bone at his eye, if you draw a line with a sharp pencil that the size of the bone that is left, all his teeth, 1/2 of his pallet, 1/2 his bottom and top jaw, the entire sinus cavity on the left, and the entire left side of his nose.) and has had what the doctors call reconstructive surgery. That a whole different story. Anyways you get the idea.
Today I had to take him to the emergency room. He was complaining of the left side of his face hurting real bad. (Hurting more than normal) And it was swollen. (if you didn't know him you couldn't tell that it was swollen) Anyways, he was hurting so bad that he asked me to take him to the ER.
This is where the story gets really bad. When the doctor comes in the room and asks why hes there, we tell him. Then he looks at us and asks "What do you want me to do about it?" Can you believe those words came from the mouth of a doctor? Oh but wait it gets better. Thankfully they didn't find anything wrong except that the CT Scan did show some inflammation and allot of fat. (That while looking at my brothers face the doctor couldn't figure out why. Yet another stupid comment coming from the mouth of a doctor. But wait guys it does get better, believe it or not. He is looking us straight in our eyes and asks us word for word guys. Here is the best part and the reason I cant believe that "We really have to depend on them" He literally looks us in the eyes and seriously asks us (wait for it, here it comes guys.) " So what kind of doctor would you see for this?" ((CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT CAME FROM THE MOUTH OF A DOCTOR!!)) He was seriously asking us. We both just looked at him laughing and telling him Shoot we were hoping you could tell us.
I can't believe we have to put our lives in their hands. I have had to deal with allot of doctors that Ive had my doubts about. But I have to say he took the cake. At least the other doctors played it off that they knew what they were doing. You are putting your life in their hands to make you better. I'm beginning to think it would be safer to go to a bum on the street and ask him to make you better. At least with bums they can tell you either they don't have a clue or lie to you. And the money you give them will 90% of the time be helpful. (the other 10% going to drugs, which probably isn't any different than the doctors)
So just to let everyone know. If you have to go to RICHARDSON REGIONAL HOSPITAL in Richardson, Tx, DO NOT ALLOW DR. PETER HUI ANYWHERE NEAR YOU!!!!

Just an update on "My daughter (prt 2)

My daughter says I exaggerate when it comes to her. Well baby girl. I'm not. I am very proud of you. But to let everyone know, though I think shes perfect just the way she is. I always have and always will no matter what she does. That's just the way it is. But to let everyone else know. She does have her faults. Her biggest is she worries. She always has. She will find something to worry about if she has nothing at the time. Like when will she have something to worry about. lol. I'm not joking. She has gotten better since Kaiden. I'm very proud of her for that. She is figuring out that its ok to just let it play out. She is figuring out what she should worry bout and what she shouldn't. That's hard for older people to do let alone for a person as young as her. She is learning that its ok not to be perfect. And though I make her sound like she is perfect. When she has come home with that B or lower grade. And I can only think of one time she made a C. I would ask her if she tried her best. She would say yes. And I would tell her as long as you did your best that's all that matters. No one is perfect and you cannot expect yourself to be. I had many talks with her crying letting her know that its ok to make something less than an A. That know matter what she does I will always love her. Just like her brother. I do have both of em on a pedestal. But its one that neither of them have to worry bout falling off of. I know they have their faults, I know they will make their mistakes, (I have tried very hard to make sure I let them know its ok to make mistakes as long as you learn from em.) And I know I will always love them no matter what.
A child's love when they are born is unconditional, and is supposed to be a parents love is unconditional. I have to say that it really is unusual to see a parents love that is unconditional. And I'm very proud to say (or at least I believe and I have proven) that I am one of those rare parents that my love for my child (ren) is unconditional. I haven't been happy with all the decisions she has made, (what parent is) but I never became so angry with her that I wouldn't talk to her or wrote her out of my life. And if she was to commit murder I would still love her unconditionally. And she would still be on top of her pedestal.
Most moms don't have a problem getting pregnant. They can get pregnant at the drop of a hat. Well I was told @ 12 yrs old that I would never have children. At 16 I found out I was pregnant. I had a hard time staying pregnant with her. Then had a little bit of hard time getting her here. So I really do treasure my kids. I do know how much of a gift they are. And when I laid eyes on her for the very 1st time I fell madly, deeply and unconditionally in love with her. I didn't know that a person could love that way or that much.
So no matter what mistakes she makes (over cooking cookies, worrying over the silliest of things, making a C, D, or even an F on a school paper, or any other mistakes she has made or will make) she has been and always will be perfect. I know and I want her to know and to understand that I know she will make mistakes. Big ones and small ones. But she is always perfect. And always my 1st true love. (She knows what that means) Everything I have written about her so far isn't an exaggeration. Just get to know her. You cant help but love her. You will know just how special she is. And if you need her if she can (and she will do everything she can to be there) she will be there for you.
I love you my beautiful baby girl

My Beautiful Daughter (prt 2)

I keep trying to write about my daughter now as an adult. I know Ive rewritten this a hundred times. I just cant get it out. It just ends up reading like I'm rambling and fumbling with words. And to tell the truth I am. How do you write just how wonderful a person is? How do you write just how proud of someone you are? Or how great a mother they are? If you read how wonderful a child she was you kinda get an idea of how wonderful an adult she has turned out to be and mother. Every time I look at her I am in such awe of her. She is just so beautiful, with a heart and voice to match. I still cant get the words out. But every time I look at her my heart just wants to explode with all the love and pride I have for her. Just look at this picture, Have you ever seen anything more beautiful in your life. When I go visit her I just stare at her. I want to run to her and wrap my arms around her and never let her go. To tell her that I'm just so very proud of her. And that she has grown into such a wonderful woman and mother. And that I'm so thankful that shes my daughter.

I think Ive come closer this time than I have any other time. Though Ive actually to write just what kinda woman she is. The words do not exist. I will continue to try and write just what kind of woman she is. Maybe someday I will find the words. But if you've ever met her you know what I'm talking about.

ITS SHOW DAY

My son had been raising a pig for the FFA. Well this past Wed. March 25, 2009, was show day. He finally is done. As he puts it. Ill be honest I don't know much bout this stuff. Other than for it being Jacobs 1st show. He did great. And the judge thought so as well. Unfortunately he didn't place. But at least he tried. And I'm very proud of him for that. He hated the entire experience. Or so he said. He wants to show a sheep next year. I'm all for him showing again. But he just doesn't realize how much work it takes to show sheep. After we sit down and talk it through, if he still wants to Ill back him 120%. Anyways, I heard the judge say only thing wrong with his pig was he was to slender. I kept telling his dad that the pig needed more pounds, but since I have never done this thing before and the fact that I'm a female, I didn't know what I was talking bout. Guess I did. lol. So now off to the slaughter house Shadow goes. lol. I'm not sure how Jacob will handle that. He said hes just fine with it. But its different to talk about it. But when your pig is actually on your plate in front of you, its a different story. Well see. The worst part of the show is it took place on the day the cold front came through. It was cold and extremely rainy. It was funny though. It rained all the way up to the time Jacob came out to show is pig. It had started raining bout 11:30 - 12:00 and stopped at 4:00. Just as soon as Jacobs group came out. I have a couple of pictures. They aren't very good. I took em with my phone. and had a hard time getting good pics with them moving around the arena. lol.

My Beautiful Daughter (prt 1)

My daughter is such a beautiful child. Well woman now. She is 20 something. Maybe if I don't give her exact age I wont feel very old. lol. I have set and listened to other parents complain bout what awful thing there child is into or doing now. You know drugs, drinking, sneaking out, norm teenage stuff. This isn't a good mother thing to admit to but I tried to talk to her for years to get her belly button pierced. And she wouldn't do it. lol. I always tell people "The worst thing she ever did was convert to Latter Day Saints. (Mormon)" So I have to say that I have been very lucky. You cant meet her and not love her. One of my ex-boyfriends mother tried to years and years ago. But she just couldn't hold out. (She didn't want to get attached to another child and have another child tore out of her life, so it had nothing to do with me or Niki) This lady wouldn't talk to Niki look at her nothing. I had to work one day and she went to this lady's house with my ex one day. After an hour this lady was hooked. She was so in love with Niki that she was always calling me wanting to do something with her. It broke my heart when we finally broke up and she wasn't going to see Niki again.

My daughter was born with such a sweet heart. Even as a child she cared bout everybody. Weather she knew em or not. She was bout 4 or 5. We were taking our evening walk and there was something on TV bout the Ethiopians (on how hungry they were and stuff). Normally she always ate everything on her plate but that night she just wouldn't. So I finally let her get away from table so we could take our walk before it got to late. Anyways we were walking down the road and she looks up at me, interrupting our convo at the time, and asked if I could send her plate and rest of the left overs to Ethiopia? I just looked down at her and almost cried. I tried to explain to her why I couldn't. She would not take my answers. She just knew that her plate of food would stay edible and would feed everybody that was hungry. lol. How do you explain to a 4 yr old it just doesn't work that way? I ended up having to lie to her and telling her that I would send em the left overs but she had to finish her plate. lol. she was more than happy to. As long as all the Ethiopians was going to eat the next day.
She just has such an awesome heart. Always concerned with everyone else. She wants to help everyone. You love her 1st time you meet her. You cant help it. I know what your thinking Of course this crazy woman is going to say this bout her own child. But you can talk to anyone that has meet her and they will tell you the same thing.
I do have more to say bout her but it will have to wait.

I'm not sure why....

Howdy, I am new to this. And really my daughter talked me into doing this. I kept asking her whats the purpose? Who wants to read about my boring life? I still feel that way. But thought I would go ahead and give it a try. Well I guess first of all I should tell a lil bout myself.
I am a 40 almost 41 year old. I have a wonderful daughter and son. And now a wonderful son-in-law and grandson. I couldnt ask for better kids. And until here recently I was taking care of my brother. He has BasilSquamous Cell Carcenoma.
There is nothing really exciting going on in my life right now. Well my son and grandson. But other than that.
But if anyone wants to read I will write. lol. so....
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