OMG!! ITS ALMOST TIME!!!!

I cant wait til August. (on other hand I hope it takes forever to get here, even though its next week) The kids have invited me to go to Utah with em. I couldn't believe they wanted me to go with em. But they do. And shoot yea I accepted. lol. I love Utah. Its such a beautiful state. And were going camping in Yellowstone Park. I am so excited. Theres just not any words. The kids said that they both have had this feeling that I needed to go with em. At 1st the other didn't know each other had this feeling. Im sure they both tried to ignore this feeling. I mean after all who in their right mind wants their mom and even worse mother in law going on vacation with em. lol. I guess the feeling became more than they could ignore. So Niki told Kyle bout her feeling of me needing to go and Kyle told Niki of his. So she sent me a text asking me if I wanted to go. At 1st I thought they were playing a mean joke. lol. But she said they really wanted me to go. So I jumped on it before they changed their minds. lol. They even asked me if there were things I wanted to do or see. So they are taking me to see the giant Tonka trucks. lol. And they are taking me to see the SLC Temple up close. And other things I wanted to do. The only concern we all had was how I was going to be able to handle the trip with my back the way it is. And they have gone out of their way to make sure we do things Ill be able to do pretty comfortably. I know it has changed things for them, you know some of the plans they may have had or some of the things they wanted to do. The kids don't have a clue as to how much this means to me. Theres nothing in this world that would show them how grateful I am.
The only thing that concerns me, is the feeling they both had bout me needing to go. lol. Theres been things going on here at home and a bad feeling that Jerry Paul and I have had. Things have been pretty stressful here at home. And I'm just hoping that all our feelings doesn't mean something really bad. Time will tell.
Thank you kids for allowing me to enjoy your vacation with you. I love ya very much. Theres not a mom out there that's as lucky as I (ok Carla)

Addiction.....

Addiction, man it can sneak up on you.
Jacob plays this online game called Runescape. Well couple months back he was playing it and none of his friends were on line. (in game friends) Anyways, he begged me for hours to play the game with him. I'm normally not into those kinds of games. (RPG) But I finally broke down and started playing with him. Well the last laugh was on me. lol. I got hooked on this silly game. Its not one of these games that you'll finish in a month or 2. Its a game that you'll play for years. Plus the creators are always adding new lands and tasks and games and all kinds of stuff. I talked to one player on game and he has been playing for 3 yrs and knew someone that's been playing over 5 yrs. I hate to admit this but that will be me. lol. And it has allot to do with y I haven't been updating my Blog. lol. That and other stuff. I spend what free time I have playing the game.
Jacob and I have spent the summer playing it. Since finances are short and really cant afford to do anything like we have during pasts summers. Anyways, though all we have really done is play that game I have to say its been one of the best summers. We have had a blast. And yes we do other things. Its been a fun way to spend time with him.

Im sorry its been so long...

I don't know if anyone actually reads my Blog. If there is anyone that reads it then I'm sorry that I haven't updated in so long. Depending on which way you look at it will determine weather its been pretty hectic (and some days were) or as my life normally goes, pretty dull. lol. But here it is you can decide.
Ok the last time I wrote anything was right before my birthday. A very long time ago. lol. Back in April. Well the kids (NIki and Kyle) thru me a Murder Mystery party. And since I don't really know anyone, friends of Niki & Kyle came. It was so much fun. It was western themed. Sadly I don't member the all the names. But mine was Bella Starry. (most of the names were close to real life people). And I'm sorry I don't member your names but this one woman that we didn't like each other (n the game) she was awesome. At times I really believed she didn't like me. lol. We had clues that we had to find and things we had to say to other actors. In the end u have to figure out who the murderer was. My son, Jacob, was the one that was killed, and the lady that was the great actress was the one that did it. If you have never had one of these parties or attended one. You really should have one. And not just for bdays. Just for the fun of it. They are pretty inexpensive and they help you with everything. They give you almost everything. The script is 90% up to you. And they have probably every kinda party you could want. They even give u menu ideas. It was awesome. (My daughter posted a couple of pics on her site, check em out)
There has been developments with my injuries from the wreck, but probably shouldn't say anything. Just to let you know it hasn't been good. But thankfully I have one Dr on my side and is trying to help me every way he can. Its been almost a yr since the wreck and its been very hard. Having to deal with this alone. Its times like this I miss having someone special in my life. At times like this I really miss having that someone to hold me and tell me its going to be ok. Or hold me when I hurt so bad I cant stand it, or be angry with me cuz the Dr's wont do their jobs. Or just to have that special person there to be happy with and sad and all that stuff that special person does. lol. I wouldn't date anyone rite now with everything I have going on in my life. With me, and other stuff. I just don't have the time to devote to a new relationship. So I will continue to depend on myself as I have done my entire life.